Been a While

I'm taking one day at a time. I've found a new church. I'm not as active. I have trouble going some days. I miss my old church family dearly...I hear a song Stacey used to sing or I see something that reminds me of them and it tears my heart out. I know my decision is the reason I can no longer be there but I lost a huge part of myself. My ex is not paying child support so I'm having to take him to court. Who would have thought he wouldn't help take care of his children? Of course after all the things he did after the fact, it doesn't actually surprise me. I admit I made my share of mistakes but at least I owned up to them. He's lying on top of it all. I have witnesses and pictures. We'll see what happens in court. The girls are doing great. I don't think the 50/50 custody is good for them. Not enough stability. That's another thing we'll do in court this week. He has a girlfriend now so I wish he'd just move on, pay his support. He buys Faith a cell phone but she's not allowed to call her own mother. He acts like he's this faithful, good guy but it's all a charade. My true friends and family know the truth and that's all that really matters. My decision is no ones business nor is it for anyone to "understand". Unless you're in someones shoes you can't. My girls are healthy and HAPPY...probably better than they have in a long time. I'm having fun and meeting a lot of new people..my prince charming will come one day. Right now my focus is my girls and getting us out of our financial situation that he helped get us into. My only regret in this whole thing is that I didn't do this a long time ago!!!

Moving on

So my divorce is final in 6 weeks!! The ex decided to hack into my email, myspace and facebook and change my passwords and read my emails. He tore up most of what he left in the house. I had to change the locks and get a protective order. He came home drunk and was in my face one night...but he is gone! I have made my share of mistakes and will the first to admit it but this is stupid. I'm just ready to move on. I've met a few people and I am having fun again. I've met a couple of blasts from the pasts. The ex blogs about not being angry and how closer to God he's getting and then pulls this stupid s***. What a joke. My true friends know the truth and that's all that matters..

and to those who think I'm getting what I deserve. Bite me

Holiday World

Faith, Maggie, Chloe and Stasia
Faith in the splash park
The girls again

We had a long, fun filled day at Holiday World. We spent most of the time in the water park. How blessed we are to be able to do fun things like this with friends and family.

Faith's 8th Birthday Party

The beginning of the evening swimming
and on the trampoline

Hope and her friends Haley and ElissaBeth
All the girls!! Yes they all stayed the night! What a great time. Thank goodness it's only once a year. Happy Birthday Beautiful!

Fourth of July

My camera has a firework setting on it. Look how weird this picture came out of Hope!

The ABC's of ME

Took this from my friend Staci's blog.

Stole this from Perri's blog. She always has funsies to do or share. She's cool like that!! Thanks Perri!

A. Aromatherapy? Satsuma from The Body Shop, clean linen or cotton, Apple Cinnamon

B. Best Buds? Wow...Connie, Tracy, Tara, Jodi, Jessica, Susan, Sonya, Julie, Jennifer, Cathy, Trin

C. Can't eat just one? Mini Snickers

D. Roller Derby in your future? Only as a spectator

E. Essential item? Lipgloss

F. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Read

G. Gotta love it when? Your kids hug and kiss you for no reason.

H. Home town you grew up in? Boonville

I. Favorite Indulgence? Chocolate milkshake, whip cream

J. Just what where you thinking when you said? Sure I'll teach again

K. Do you have Kids? What are their names? Yes!! Faith Renee and Hope Avery

L. Life isn't complete without? Jesus Christ

M. Marriage Date? February 14, 2000

N. Number of brothers and sisters? 1 brother, 2 sisters

O. Oranges, apples or other? Cantaloupe

P. Phobias? Sharks, gators, small enclosed spaces

Q. Quotes? God is good all the time

R. Reasons to smile? My God and my kids

S. Speed Dial Numbers? Hubby, mom and dad

T. TV shows you don't want to miss? My soaps

U. Unknown fact about me? I've been to jail......long time ago before my christian days!

V. How do you Veg out? A good book on the porch

W. Worst habit? Pulling my eyelashes

X. eXperience you don't want to do again? Death of a friend

Y. Your favorite food? Mexican

Z. 'Zactly what were you thinking when you said? I do...just kidding...Let's landscape the front yard!

Someone's pants are on fire!

Who could that be??? Oh let's see, the weather man maybe! Yesterday the weather channel told me that rain would not start until until 3 p.m. today. So 5:30 a.m. we set up for our yard sale......our 8 tables of stuff and 15 trash bags of clothes...then the thunder rolls. I speed to Wal-Mart to get tarps to cover stuff but by the time I get out it's a torrential down pour and the parking lot is flooded....and the clothes are soaked :(. We got the clothes and electronics covered but it's still raining.

Oh yeah, this is after I fell over a box this morning and skinned both my knees....what a day!

New Additions!

This is Max our baby
Our new addition Gracie
and Lilly
How sweet!

We went to a friend's Saturday and someone had dropped off 2 litters of kittens. We brought Gracie home and were talking to a neighbor and her friend fell in love. There was another one just like her at the place we got her so we gave her to the friend and went back the next to get another one like her. We could not catch her but the calico came right up to us so we brought Lilly home. Later that afternoon my neighbor came back with Gracie in hand. Her friend's dog didn't take to well to her and they couldn't take her so we now have 3 cats...but that's OK!

Girlfriends weekend

Hanging out on the patio
Jodi, Tara, Sonya and Jess
Me and Jodi...Jodi has lived away and just recently moved back to town. We hadn't been with her for 13 years...but it was like it was yesterday!

My bestest friends since 7th grade get together several times a year. This weekend we met at Jessica's in Fishers. 10 of us made it. We sat outside and ate and talked and looked through pictures and old yearbooks then we went inside and talked and stayed up until about 2 chatting. We had a blast as always! We are going to get together again in September in Cincinnati. I love you girls!

Our neighborhood on cops...

Apparently this afternoon two men broke into a home on Franklin and the homeowner came home and they took off on foot. The police found them by my house soon after. We need to move!!!! I keep praying we can move closer to church and this only solidifies my thoughts!!

Happy Mother's Day!

To all moms...Happy Mother's Day! What a blessing it is.

Stitches

It was time to take them out so I took a suture removal kit home from work. Thursday evening Jamie sat on Hope and held her down and I removed the stitches. It was awful. She screamed "Mommy help me!" over and over. It killed me. She was mad at Jamie for holding her down and wouldn't have anything to do with him the rest of the night. But they are out and it's healing and looks pretty good.

Grace House

The ladies from Grace House came to our last ladies meeting Thursday night. We had a huge meal and we presented them with stationary and puzzles all the women from the church had brought in. They gave a couple of amazing testimonies and signed 2 songs for us. It was such a blessing!! I REALLY want to volunteer there and take them on outings and especially on Friday nights. They have chapel time and then movie nights and they need women to go give testimony or speak whatever God lays on their heart or to just hang out with them. Thank you God for bringing these women into my life again. I visited there a little over a year ago and they were on my heart then but life got in the way but God brought them back again. We raised $800 to give them to start a scholarship fund. It costs them $500 a month to be there. I can't imagine that. It's totally faith based and these women are wonderful!

Stitches

Our first time for stitches...Hope fell and hit a wooden end table at the sitters and cut open right above her eye by her eyebrow. She was actually walking and just tripped over her feet but hit it pretty hard (of course I think dark forces were behind it). She had a small gash but it was pretty deep so 2 hours at the ER and 3 stitches. They had to put her little arms in a pillow case behind her back and me, Jamie and 2 nurses had to hold her down. It was terrible. But she's fine now. Praise God.

Grace House

Last night a few of the ladies from church went to the Grace House to meet the ladies and take a tour and hear what Grace House is really about. Our ladies group broke into smaller groups and were given $100 to do something in the community. Our group chose to take the money and buy some Krispy Kreme donut cards and sell them and give the money to the Grace House. The program there is awesome! The ladies there were so sweet and open with us. The program is totally faith based. The cost for the ladies to be in the program is $500 a month. They are coming to our ladies meeting in May to give some testimony and sign a song (they do sign language to songs) and we will present them with their check. They are such an awesome group. They need volunteers to help take them to appointments and to outings once they are eligible to go out to shop and eat if you want something to volunteer for. I had a great time meeting the ladies and hearing about the Grace House.

Bye Penny :(

I work with a wonderful lady named Penny. She is smart, funny, beautiful inside and out and a woman of God. She's also leaving. She's moving back home to Alabama. Tomorrow is her last day. I am so glad I got to know her. I'll miss you Penny!

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"Mischief is your middle name, but your first is friend. You are quite the prankster that loves to make other people laugh."

War

I'm having a war of souls of sorts. I can't explain it lately but I feel totally "lost". I've been reading the Word and I got Beth Moore's Get Out of that Pit and it's really helping because I feel like I'm sitting on the edge of a pit just wanting to jump into it! I'm having crazy thoughts and doing things I normally don't. My health isn't doing great and my emotions are not either. I keep praying for guidance and for God to show me what the stumbling block is that is causing these feelings I'm having. I have some great friends that I can load my problems to and they listen and respect my feelings even if they aren't the ones I should be having. There's times I want to walk away from everything...except the girls. They are what keeps me going and my God. I know He still loves me unconditionally even with stupid decisions and thoughts. Thanks to all my wonderful friends who love me anyway!! :)